my dear hearts

4.10.2012

1.21.2012

I have this problem wherein from time to time I go online and look for dogs (and sometimes bunnies) that are available for adoption. Even though we can't get one right now. Our apartment doesn't allow for dogs. We aren't settled enough to make that commitment to a pet. I know all this. But, man, I love puppies.

Yesterday I fell in love with Posie. She's two months old and is an American pit bull mix. I want her to live with me forever. I'm seriously a little devastated we can't adopt her.

I'm crazy for her. Her eyes and floppy ears are so endearing (though, why the sweater? let's nix that). Honestly, if Jared wasn't a firm no on this, I'd probably go beg our landlord to make an exception.

If you live on the east coast and want a new friend, Posie currently lives in Hopkinton, MA.

1.10.2012

Pomelo

I found one at the grocery store the other day. Huge and yellow. Pomelos make me so happy; they are delicious and I have the nicest memories connected with them.

The last time I ate one was in Paris. I went with two friends to Pierre Herme for macaroons. Then Nako and I stopped in a little park, on our way to the Rodin museum, and the split cookies and the fruit. In the Rodin gardens we ate some more cookies. It was a really good day. One of my favorite Paris days.

Tonight, I'm eating mine while I watch Babies on Netflix. It feels pretty cozy.

12.25.2011

Miracle

And it came to pass, as the angels were gone away from them into heaven, the shepherds said one to another, Let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see this thing which is come to pass, which the Lord hath made known unto us.

And they came with haste, and found Mary, and Joseph, and the babe lying in a manger.

And when they had seen it, they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child. And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds. But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart. And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen, as it was told unto them.

Luke 2:15-20

12.24.2011

Happy Christmas!

12.20.2011

First snow

There is no snow here. Tomorrow we are leaving town for the holidays, December is closer to the end than the beginning, and, still, no snow. It feels undone.

This unfulfilled expectation of snow somehow reminds me of a mid-December day a couple of years ago. The snow came then. Heavy and fast, foot after foot fell through the evening and into the night. It was beautiful, in the dark, to watch it piling and whirling under the street lamps. I stayed with my very new boyfriend Jared and his very new roommate Brent in their very new apartment to wait out the storm. In the morning, Brent made us all pancakes and served them up on floppy paper plates.

The place was all wood floors and big windows, full of sun and light from the snow. Two burnt orange couches were the only furniture in the house. Jared and I sat on the familiar one against the side window, the one from his previous apartment. We were each on either end, facing one another. He sat leaning back with one leg on the floor and one extended across the sofa. I liked how soft he looked in the morning. I liked that he was watching me. I looked out at the still falling snow. The flakes were big and sparkling. The whole street looked gracious and idyllic, with snow sitting heavy on the trees and houses. I watched snowflakes whirl towards the windowpane and I wondered if he was still watching me.

"I love you," he said. I looked at him, still and serious for a long moment. "Come here," he said. I crawled over into his arms and pressed my face into his neck. "I love you," I said. "I know," he replied.

The room stayed light with the white from outside and this new magic. New snow and new love. I always wait for this feeling again in the winter.